baby k

here is an update on baby k...

i have the awesome luxury of free ultrasounds at work. i love it!

my cousin did an ultrasound last week at 12 weeks. unfortunately it's only video and i can't put it on here. the baby was totally just chillin out and would not move at the beginning. then it started kicking its legs like crazy...it looked like it was riding a bike.

i love to see baby k and see it's heartbeat!

today we reached 13 weeks. yay! the weeks are going by so fast. i kind of hope they keep going this way. i have a feeling those few weeks between christmas and january 19th will be going REALLY slow. baby k seems to be doing good...as far as i can tell from the outside. i have an appointment with my doctor again in 2 weeks so i'll keep you updated.

i've been feeling great and slightly less tired. i really don't feel any different yet. no belly (other than what was already there) and only 1 pound so far.

things have been a little more crazy than we anticipated...

we didn't think switching insurance would be such a nightmare...but it is.

no one in texas will accept me and i don't want to take the chance of trying to pay for it ourselves with no insurance. the way my life works, if i don't have it something will go wrong. we just decided it's too big of a gamble...who knows if i could end up having a c-sections, bed rest, have the baby early, nicu, etc. plus, i am a HUGE worrier and could not rest easy unless i knew i had a plan.

so, here's the plan...

i will stay here and keep my job, my insurance and my doctor until the baby is born.

jd will be in san antonio starting his first semester of school.

not a great plan, i know, but kind of the only option left.

it will only be for september, october, november, and 2 weeks of december. then jd can come here for christmas until school starts again. we are really hoping this baby comes a little bit early before jd's school starts. that would REALLY help. i'm not counting on that though because this baby didn't come in the first place when we really would have liked it to, so why now?

this is a pretty lame situation, but this is the only way we can be sure of having insurance and knowing what we will be responsible for with the bills. the plan is to go visit every other weekend or so and jd will be here for thanksgiving. i'll be living with my mom and rod and will surely needs some friends to keep me busy! PLEASE give me a call!

some things about baby k...

some people are curious and some have asked. some know the story and some don't.

let me just say...i'm not telling this for pity or for anyone to feel sorry. we're happy with how things turned out, even though it's going to be hard. people have asked, but most importantly i prayed every day to understand this situation so that i could help someone else.

we were expecting baby k roughly 2 years ago. i stopped taking birth control in may of 2007, with the expectation that something would happen in the next 6 months or so. nothing did. things got a little complicated. i was not pregnant, but had no periods. i visited my doctor and found out i have pcos (polycystic ovarian syndrome). sometimes it causes infertility, sometimes you are fine, sometimes it takes a really long time. for me it was a really long time.

throughout the last 2 years, we have waited and waited, jd and i both went through lots of testing only to find out my dr. wouldn't really help us until august of 2009 when it had really been a year from all the testing. jd had required sperm tests and medication and i had plenty of blood tests, exams, and a hysterosalpingogram (they inject dye to see if your tubes are open). i tried to be patient and wait, but in march i couldn't take it anymore. one of my dear friends recommended a reproductive endocrinologist to me and i absolutely loved him...besides the fact that he was successful! we initially saw him in march, and he wanted to start me on clomid. he was so nice and really explained the process of pcos. he said 90% of women with pcos get pregnant, it just takes them about 4 times as long...which means 24 months.

i started clomid in april and was told to take a pregnancy test before my next medication to induce a period. i took the test to hawaii with me...negative. i shrugged it off (as i had gotten used to) and thought we'd try again the next month. (no, this was not a hawaii baby. a few people have asked, but seriously jd's parents were 3 feet away in the same room.) i was super tired in hawaii and i started thinking when i got home. i talked myself out of taking a test because it always turns out negative. on may 20th after i got home from running, i just decided to take a test for some reason...i don't know why. the second i set it down both lines appeared. i was so confused, i grabbed the box and yelled for jd. it was positive. i still didn't believe it so i took the second one....positive. i still kind of doubted it so i got a blood test the next day. positive. ok, i couldn't deny that. i felt bad that i wasn't more excited at first, but i didn't really know what to do. i have waited for this day for 2 years and it didn't exactly go how i thought it would. but, either way we are so excited and amazed it finally happened. i was afraid of being excited just in case it wasn't real or it was taken away.

it has been a long and incredibly hard road. there have been many tears shed and many times i felt like this would never happen. i never ever dreamed this would be us. i always assumed that when we wanted to have a baby, we just would. no problem. i have learned a lot and jd and i have become closer. we have depended on each other and helped each other through some rough times. i have gained faith in my heavenly father, that's for sure. he was waiting for the right time. i'm still not sure exactly why this is the right time when it seems so hard, but i am willing to accept whatever challenges we have. this is what i wanted, what i dreamed of and i will be happy with it! so, needless to say this baby was definitely planned...just a little late.
we can't wait for baby k and love this baby so much already!